02/06/20: The first thing I bought was….

The first thing I bought I don’t remember but the first big memorable purchase that I remember is my mcm bag it was a purse wallet. When I bought this purse I remember thinking about this purchase before I did because spending over 500$ on a purse to me was absolutely crazy . I wanted to give myself a present for losing 40 pounds so I finally sucked it up and actually went to San Francisco and bought this bag . I felt so ecstatic because I’ve worked my butt for since I turned 16 and I came from literally a suit case so the purse to me spoke more than just being a purse it was to me as if it was a prized possession . I have been satisfied with this item ever since I first ever bought it my family saw me as if I was crazy for spending that much on a purse but I literally cherish it so much. I would say that social forces had an impact because coming from nothing and always having to worry on what I was going to wear or that I finally didn’t have to wear the same shoes to school anymore because I had money from working . the brand “MCM” was popular and like a beginning brand to designer so I knew when people looked at my purse they would I guess sense that Im getting there Im succeeding. As being 18 at the time and having a designer bag to me that was the right decision because I felt like I actually deserved it even though it was pricey I knew people would look at it and be like oh wow at least in my head the social forces would be that way. The media and songs had the brand MCM mentioned as well so I thought I was a cool kid for having the brand and being able to sing the lyrics . Crazy how much I have evolved and can actually see a different perspective because I’ve never even looked at it this way or sat and thought why I bought it .